Monday, August 29, 2016

The Tenerife Beauty Haul

Guess who's back, back again? It's me! I know, it's been some time, huh? I've actually been home since Friday, but for some reason I just couldn't bring myself to sit down and write anything for my blog for the past few days. I don't know whether that's because I wasn't ready to let go of my holiday yet, or because writing my thesis is taking all the fun out of writing for me, but somehow putting this up took me half a week. Go figure.

Anyways, onto the matter at hand. Exciting new make up! I actually didn't even intend to go this ham on my trip to Tenerife - I mean, it was a beach trip and around this time, I hardly wear make up anyways as it just tends to slide off my face - but then I kept discovering more and more brands or products that aren't available to me over here in Germany, so I ended up buying way more stuff than I thought I would.

So, as I myself love having a good snoop and look at what people buy over their holidays, or pretty much all the time, I decided I'd share some of my exciting new purchases with you!



When it came to all things make up, Hiperdino, which is the Canary Island's biggest supermarket chain, was a right ol' paradise. When I walked in there and spotted a Rimmel counter, I actually squealed out loud a little. I've always ordered my Rimmel products online, so being able to actually swatch them before putting them into the shooping cart was pure joy. I ended up getting one of their infamous Kate Moss lipsticks in '105' as well as the Provocalips Ligloss in '730 Make Your Move'.

I also picked up the L'Oréal Paris Nude Magique BB Cream in 'Light' in Hiperdino - which has come back to bite me in my butt because it's now actually quite a bit too light for me. I must've tanned more than I thought!
This caught my eye as I like to wear a lighter base all through summer and well until October and have run out of my favorite Maybelline cream. It's not available over here, so I decided to give it a go so long as I had the chance to get it!

Another brand that's rather hard to get hold of where I live - do you notice the general pattern here already? - is MakeUp Revolution, which is a bummer because I've seen so many people rave about their products, especially their eyeshadow palettes.
Well, what a lucky girl I am - I coincidentally stumbled across a tiny store that selled some of MakeUp Revoultion's stuff, and their Beyond Flawless palette was on display. The shadows included are drop-dead gorgeous, some of them are matte, some glittery and there's so many of them that the possiblities of using it are endless!

I've had my eye on H&M's collection for quite some time now, but for some reason I've always put the products I swatched back down and left. When I spotted their lipstick in '003 cream chestnut', I was sold, because even though I own plenty of nude lipsticks, this weird pink-brownish shade is something that was missing in my collection.

The last thing I got technically isn't make up, but it's so damn good that I just had to share it with you anyways. Pull&Bear's Purple Burst perfume has a very unique scent - I couldn't telll you the exact ingredients for the life of me - but it smells extremely fresh and citrus-y and thus is the perfect summer time perfume!

from left to right: H&M '003', Rimmel Provocalips '730', Rimmel Kate Moss '105'


Do you go crazy when you're on holiday some place where new brands are available to you, or do you just try to get them online?

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Thursday, August 25, 2016

Song Lyrics That Stayed with Me

Music has always been a big part of my life. I've started singing in choirs and performing in musicals even before I could read or write and played the flute for ten years. Even when I wasn't making music myself, it still surrounded me at all times - I've always listened to it whenever or wherever I could.

Because music has played such a vital part in my life, it's not only the tunes themselves, but also the lyrics they carry that have stuck with me - I write them down on snippest and plaster them across notebooks, pinboards and the like to always have them near me if a situation where I need motivation, comfort or affirmation arises.

So, coming from this musical background, I recently read Erin's blog post on some of her favorite songs - and it inspired me to share some of the song lyrics that have stuck around with me over the years with you!

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1. "I'm the hero of the story, don't need to be saved." - Regina Spektor, Hero of the Story

2. "You are beautiful, no matter what they say, words can't bring you down." - Christina Aguilera, Beautiful

3. "Wise men say only fools rush in, but I can't help falling in love with you." - Elvis Presley, Can't Help Falling in Love

4. "I might only have one match, but I can make an explosion." - Rachel Platten, Fight Song

5. "Dreams just aren't enough, I'll be waiting for the real thing - I'll know it by the feeling." - Nickelback, Gotta Be Somebody

6. "You're dripping like a saturated sunrise. You're spilling like an overflowing sink. You're ripped at every edge but you're a masterpiece." - Halsey, Colors

7. "If today I woke up with you right beside me, like all of this was just some twisted dream, I'd hold you closer than I ever did before." - 5 Seconds of Summer, Amnesia

8. "Love of mine, some day you will die, but I'll be close behind - I will follow you into the dark. No blinding lights or tunnels to gates of white, just our hands clasped tight, waiting for the hint of a spark." - Death Cab For Cutie, I Will Follow You Into The Dark

9. "I'm not scared of dying, I just don't want to - If I'd stop lying I'd just disappoint you." - Robbie Williams, Come Undone

10. "A penny for my thoughts, oh no I'll sell them for a dollar, they're worth so much more after I'm a goner. And maybe then you'll hear the words I'd been singing - funny when you're dead how people start listening." - The Band Perry, If I Die Young

11. "All these places have their moments, with lovers and friends I can still recall. Some are dead and some are living, in my life I've loved them all." - The Beatles, In My Life

12. "I'm starting with the man in the mirror, I'm asking him to change his ways - and no message could have been any clearer: if you want to make the world a better place, take a look at youself and then make a change." - Michael Jackson, Man In The Mirror

13. "And I try to refrain but you're stuck in my brain. An all I do is cry and complain because second's not the same." - Halsey, Is There Somewhere

14. "You're dangerous 'cause you're honest." - U2, Who's Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses

15. "War is not the answer because only love can conquer hate." - Marvin Gaye, What's Goin' On



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Sunday, August 21, 2016

How to Take Care of Your Tan

I love summer - the warmth, all the free time on my hand, spending as much time outside as I possibly can. And you know what comes with all of these three things I you lined up - a gorgeous tan.

As I'm naturally very pale - and I'm talking my teachers ask me whether I'm ill kind of pale - I always look forward to tanning which will help me look a little healthier and give my skin that little bit of extra glow.

Tanning is fairly easy. You rub some sunscreen into your skin, sit down or walk around in a sunny or even shadowy spot and even after a few hours, you've got yourself a nice little tan going.

While I think we're all aware of how tanning works, many might not know how to take care of their tan properly to make it look good and last for as long as it possible - and because of that, I thought I'd share some of my tips and tricks on how to properly take care of a tan with you guys today!



1. Use a skin scrub before going on holiday.

The human skin continuously renews itself - it completes its "cycle of renewal" every 28 to 30 days -and it will continue to do so after you've acquired your well-deserved tan.

To avoid going on holiday mid skin-cycle and possibly losing your tan earlier than you want to, you should exfoliate your skin using a skin scrub, preferably one that with a herbal or sugary basis.
By exfoliating your skin before leaving for your trip, you'll ensure that your skin is fresh and new and only slowly starting to renew itself when yous start tanning, which means you'll get to keep your tan for longer.


2. Drink water directly after spending time tanning.

Tanning might not only make you feel dizzy, it will also make you feel really dry and dehydrate your skin a lot.
Due that, you should always drink plenty of water after a tanning session and also remember to drink while you're still lying in the sun.



3. M-o-i-s-t-u-r-i-ze.

Directly after tanning, apply moisturizer to your skin to help it cool down and regain its moisture - using an after-sun lotion is even better as most of those products contain ingredients like aloe vera which make them feel lighter on the skin and help it stay cool even more.

If you're on holiday and more or less tanning at all times, you should also mosturize your skin twice a day - preferably in the morning and at night - on top of that to assure that your skin is hydrated and healthy.


4. Take breaks between tanning sessions.

I think everyone will know that tanning can really wear your and leave you feeling tired and in the worst case, even ill, so taking breaks between extensive tanning sessions is an absolute must.

It will not only protect your brain from possibly being cooked inside your head and giving you a sun stroke, but it'll also give your skin a much needed break. Exposing it to the sun for too long may damage it severly which would show in a sunburn or blistered skin; besides that, it also raises your risk for skin cancer - so to prevent all of these things, you should definitely leave several hours between long tanning sessions; even more if your skin has been damaged already,


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Friday, August 19, 2016

Make Up for When You're Going Away


I like using a broad variety of the make up I own, especially when it comes to eye and lip products - I have two drawers full of those that I can use every single day, so there's plenty of choices while I'm at home.

When I'm travelling, however, I can hardly bring all my drawers full of make up with me. I need to cut it down to the bare essentials if I don't want to end up with excess baggage, which can be quite difficult for me - and I can imagine that a lot of other beauty lover feel the same way; and that's why I want to share the make up I tend to pack for my trips with you guys today!



When it comes to face products, I tend to only pack a fair few, especially during summer when I wear a lot less make up as it would just close up my pores or slide off my face thanks to the heat.

For days when I'll feel like I need a little more coverage, I'm taking Maybelline's Pure 8-in-1 BB Creme in 'Light' with me as it feels extremely light on the skin but still covers minor spots or redness - same applies for MAC's Mineralize Skinfinish Natural Powder in 'Light Plus', which works just as well but isn't as thick and harsh on the face.
To take care of my dark under-eye circles, I'm packing MAC's Mineralize Concealer in 'NW20', and if any other blemishes need fixing, I'm taking NYX's HD Concealer in 'Fair'.

On days when I want to dash out and add a little something to my face, I'm also taking Avon's blush pearls and Essence's Blogger's Bronzing and Highlighting palette with me.



As far as eye products go, I'm lying low even more than I am on the face products just because I will only need them for a night out or a fancy dinner, so stacking up on them for my travels woudln't be wise.

The one essential when it comes to my eyes is the Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara, which is my absolute favorite mascara and the one product I'll always wear, even if I don't have the nerve to put on anything else. The Shape and Shade Eye Contouring palette is a close second to the mascara - not filling in my eyebrows comes close to a deadly sin; and what's especially great about this palette is that all products can be used on both the brows and the lids!

Besides that, three of my favorite single eyeshadows also made my suitcase - KIKO's single shadows in '220' and '224' (which have sadly been discontinued) as well as light, glittery rose one by PS...Love, Primark's beauty brand, which sadly doesn't seem to have a certain name.



As you might've realized, lip products are the one area where I just cannot cut it down to a few products - I like to take a broad variety so I can always have a lippy that matches my outfit, even if it means taking five nude lipsticks with me. Don't judge me.

The four lipsticks that made the cut are all by MAC - 'Kinda Sexy', 'Fanfare', 'Brave' and 'Viva Glam II'; almost all of which are pink shades and perfect for the summer!
 Besides that, I'm also taking three glosses - Maybelline's Vivid Matte Liquid Lipstick in '05 Nude Flush', Essence's XXL Longlasting Velvet Matte Lipgloss in '05 Velvet Rose' and NYX's Soft Matte Lip Creme in 'Abu Dhabi'; so you could technically say that they'll be my go-tos for nude lips.
To finish it off, two lip liners I cannot go without during summer - KIKO's Smart Lip Pencil in '702', an incredible fuchsia pink and the light nude pink P.S...Love lip liner in the shade '01'.


I'm not too fuzzy when it comes to taking make up brushes with me - I often apply my make up using my fingers, so I don't need to have too many with me anyways. My Beauty Blender, however, is an absolute must as it works wonders when it comes to applying my MAC powder.

For applying eyeshadow, my holy-grail brushes are Zoeva's 223 and 235 - I can make eye make up work just fine with these two by themselves, so I don't even bother packing all my other eye brushes.
For applying blush, I'm taking the Zoeva 128 one with me and for blending their 104.
The only other brush that comes into the bag is their infamous 322 Browline brush, which is the only eyebrow brush that has ever worked for me.



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Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Summer Book Haul

 If there's a perfect time for reading, it definitely has to be summer. There's less work on my desk that needs to be done, my balcony is extra inviting as the sun beams onto it and I generally manage to make more time for myself - and is there a better past-time than reading?

I've shared some of my favorite book quotes on here before - twice, because the first post was so popular! (you can find part one here, part two here) - and also reviewed some of my recent reads, but I've never actually shared a book haul on my blog.

But when I went shopping and picked up a whopping five books to take with me when I go on holiday, I thought - why not? You guys seem to enjoy the times when I talk about books and reading is one of my biggest passions, so let me tell you a lil' something about the books I picked out the other day!



It's no secret that I love Rainbow Rowell's writing with all my heart, so one could think that "Eleanor & Park" might've been sitting on my shelf for ages already, but nu-uh. I don't know why I haven't bought this earlier because I've certainly had it in my hands before - what the hell had I been doing?
I actually don't know much about the book's arc because I like to dive into books head-first, but from the information at the book I've gathered that it's about two teenagers called Eleanor and Park who are both the odd one out in their own way and, once they find each other, fall in love.


I had never heard of "Vanishing Girls" prior to entering my favorite bookstore and seeing it there, but I've read several of Lauren Oliver's books and I know how much they can draw me in - I often end up reading them in one or two sittings - so I read up on it on Goodreads.
It is esentially a thriller surrounding the disappearances of several girls and how ugly sibling rivalary can really get - it's said to be extremely gripping and deeply compelling and was even compared to Gone Girl, so I'm very interested in if this mystery lives up to the great reviews.


"Miss Pergerine's Home For Peculiar Children" by Ransom Riggs is another novel that has been talked about widely - it was even turned into a movie directed by Tim Burton!
I've always refrained from it because to be honest, I was afraid it might creep me out too much. I know, I'm the biggest scaredy cat, laugh at me all you want. But judging by the snyopsis, a book about a boy exploring an abandoned orphanage on a remote island doesn't sound too funny, especially when it says that the children the orphanage housed might not be so dead.
The book also includes photgraphs of some rather creepy looking children, so I feel like I'll have to read this at the pool or beach where I won't have to be afraid of the dark.


Nina Lacour and David Levithan's "You Know Me Well" is a fairly new novel that has received great ratings, so I was intrigued when I saw it sitting on a shelf in the book store.
It's about two teens who know each other from school without ever really getting to know each other, who unexpectedly meet one night. As both struggle with issues of their own, they grow closer to one another.
What I love about this already is that both of the story's main characters are gay - I want to read more books that represent the LGTB community, so this is a win-win situation!


Compared to all the other books I purchased, I know next to nothing about "Aristotele and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe" by Benjamin Alire Saenz - I purposely tried to avoid any reviews or synopses because every book blogger and YouTuber I follow has praised this book high and low, so I wanted to make up my opinion on this all by myself without being influenced by others.



Have you read any great books recently? If so, please let me know - I'm always looking to add books to my 'to-read' list!
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Sunday, August 14, 2016

Is Self-Love Self-Taught?



Self-love. A topic that can be quite touchy for a lot of people and often stirs arguments as different people have different views on it, just like everyone has their very own mindset on every matter.

There's people who don't struggle with loving themselves at all, people who look in the mirror and love the person they see, people who are confident in their choices and the person they have helped them become.
But, on the other side of the coin, there's also people who have a war raging inside their head, who struggle with loving themselves for who they are, who might not even want to look at themselves in the mirror and maybe wish to be another person entirely.
And of course, this is not just a matter of black and white, there's also people who are kind of in the middle, torn between loving who they are and hating certain things about themselves just as much.


I'm going to be real with you, I've never been someone who's looked into the mirror and winked at themselves. I've never been one hundret percent confident about who I am.

There was a point in time when I really disliked, pretty much hated myself. It was around the age of fourteen, maybe fifteen, and I think a lot of teenagers feel the same or a similar way when they're that age, when you're just finding out who you are and completely uncertain about how you're holding up.

I thought about this the other day, then thought about the situation I'm in at this very moment, and I've realised how far I've come when it comes to self-love.
Believe, sometimes I'd still like to punch myself in the face for the things I say or do, and sometimes I can't smile when I look in the mirror, but I feel like that's normal and the times that those things happen are decreasing more and more.

But how did I start making all that progress? Did it all have to do with myself, and myself alone.
No. Obviously, the phrase "self-love" specifies that it's all about loving yourself, the progress to achieve self-love doesn't only have to do with you, but also your environment and all its negative influences.

Think of everything and everyone who makes you feel bad, then think about whether or not you really need those things and people in your life. 99% of the time, they will not be vital for you, and in that case, you need to cut those negative influences out of you life. It might seem harsh, merciless, but it's a big step towards a bettered mental health and will help you see yourself in a different light.

I know that this is a lot of theory and that I will never be able to help you as much as I want to through a computer screen, but I can tell you this.

Self-love is about you and you only, but it's not self-taught, or at least not completely. It starts with you, but it involves other influences from your everyday life that might or might not be in your hands, that you can or cannot control.

If you struggle with loving yourself, severly or not, and feel helpless or alone, know that you're not.
And this is not just an empty phrase, even if you might think so - I did too. There are people out there who you can talk to, if it's not a member of your family or a friend, there are countless help-lines or even online chats where you can talk about your feelings with people who also struggle, or even with experts.

And in the end, I think we're all somewhat struggling, eh? I know that I said there's people who don't seem to have any problem with loving themselves, and while I don't doubt that they exist, I think that the majority is stuck in the gray zone between liking and hating themselves.
And that's okay, so long as your good days outweight the bad ones and you try to get closer to who you are and being okay with that each day.



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Friday, August 12, 2016

MAC Lipstick Collection

It's no big secret that I'm an avid lover of MAC's lipsticks. They're easily my favorites due to the qulaity in pigmentation and longevity they offer, and don't even get me started on the array of different finishes and shades.

Because MAC has so much to offer when it comes to lipsticks, I feel like I can never have enough of them, there's always another shade I find while swatching countless lipsticks on the back of my hand until I finally run out of free space.

Thanks to my ever-growing addiction love for these lipsticks, I've continued to buy more and more of them ever since getting my first one in the fall of 2014 and thus have compiled a small collection of MAC lipsticks and as I love reading about other people's lipstick collections, I decided to share mine with you today!



Fanfare is my only Cremesheen finish lipstick in the bunch and was actually the first MAC lipstick I've ever bought. It's basically responsible for my love for these lippies and even this very post.
What I like about the Cremesheen finish is that the lipstick is very smooth and soft, almost buttery on the lips and feels as if it even hydrates them a little. Due to the finish, the longevity of the product is not as great - it only lasts for around two or three hours without heavy eating or drinking.
However, Fanfare is insanely pigmented; it's a pretty out there bright pink shade and absolutely perfect for summer.

Jist is the most recent addition to my collection - it was included in my recent MAC haul- and also the first time ever I try out a Frost finish.
I never thought Frost finishes would be up my alley because they contain insane amounts of glitter and are extremly out-there and hey-look-at-me, but when I swatched this shade in store I fell head over heels in love with it. It's a light brown to light orange-y shade infused with lots of glitter, but I still think it's rather wearable and can be combined with a simple eye make up for an eye-catching look.

Kinda Sexy and Velvet Teddy are the two lipsticks with Matte finishes I own and while they're both nude shades, they're still very different. Kinda Sexy is a very light pink with brown undertones that suits people with fairer complexions especially, while Velvet Teddy is almost a true brown shade and can be rocked by people of all skin tones.
What I love the matte finishes for is that they're extremely long-lasting and usually very pigmented. However, the matte finish can also be very drying on the lips and may even make them chap, so if you're going for these shades you should always prepare your lips by using a lip scrub and lip balm!

The finish I've been loving the most during the past two years must be the Satin one - I own three lippies that come with this finish: Brave, Twig and Viva Glam II. Brave is a darker, more muted shade of pink that's more fit for everyday-wear than Fanfare, Twig is a mauve-y shade that looks almost a little red with my pale skin tone; and Viva Glam II is a medium brown with pink undertones.
The Satin finish basically provides you with the best of both worlds: It gives you great color pay-off while being smoother and more forgiving on the lips than matte lipsticks are - and they're almost as long-lasting as matte lippies as well!



first photo: swatches without flash / second photo: swatches with flesh


There you have all the MAC lipsticks I currently own. To me, it's crazy to see that I've collected that bunch over the past two year - I know that a lot of bloggers own three or four times as many, but if you think about how pricey these lipsticks are I'm extremely happy about the collection I've got going on at the moment!

Do you own any MAC lipsticks? If you do, what are your favorite shades?



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Wednesday, August 10, 2016

More Book Quotes That Stayed With Me

If there's two things you need to know about me it's that on one hand, I'm a huge bookworm who can always be found reading when I have the time; and on the other hand, I'm someone who lives by quotes. I collect them and plaster them everywhere I can see them, I internalize them and remember them in times of need.

These two things can be combined nicely when it comes to book quotes - I'm one of those people who marks pages that carry important or insiring quotes with dog-ears. I know, it's a really bad habit, but that doesn't stop me.

I love flipping through some of my favorite books and looking at the dog-eared pages, reading through the quotes I loved so much while reading the book. That's actually how I got the idea that manifested into my post Book Quotes That Stayed with Me, which was received with so many nice words and encouragement that I wanted to share some more of my favorite book quotes with you guys today!



1. "I don't care what the stars say about how small we are. One, even the smallest, weakest, most insignificant one, matters." - Rick Yancey, The 5th Wave

2. "One must always be careful of books and what is inside them, for words have the powers to change us." - Cassandra Clare, Clockwork Angel

3. "So many things become beautiful when you really look." - Lauren Oliver, Before I Fall

4. "Broken isn't the same as unfixable." - Marissa Meyer, Winter

5. "If you want to know what a man's like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals." - J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

6. "There will always be more questions. Every answer will lead to more questions. The only way to survive is to let some of them go." - David Levithan, Every Day

7. "It's funny how humans can wrap their mind around things and fit them into their version of reality." - Rick Riordan, The Lightning Thief

8. "Life doesn't have to be so planned. Just roll with it and let it happen." - Jenny Han, To All the Boys I've Loved Before

9. "There are always suprises. Life may be inverterately grim and the suprises disproportionatley unpleasant, but it would hardly be wort living if there were no exceptions, no sunny days, no random acts of kindness." - T.C. Boyle, The Tortilla Curtain

10. "The marks humans leave are too often scars." - John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

11. "No man is an island." - Nick Hornby, About A Boy

12. "Embellish you flaws. They will turn into your assets." - Marie Lu, The Young Elites

13. "Maybe there isn't such a thing as fate. Maybe it's just the opportunities we're given, and what we do with them." - Marissa Meyer, Cress

14. "It's hard to like practical jokes when your whole life feels like one." - Rick Riordan, The Last Olympian

15. "Life is a book and there are a thousand pages I have not read yet." - Cassandra Clare, Clockwork Princess


Do you have any favorite book quotes?
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Sunday, August 7, 2016

A Letter to My Late Grandmother



Hello Grandma.

Writing this letter to you is insanely difficult for me, and I've had a long, hard think about it, but I know that I finally have to deal with grieving because if I only ever keep all these things swirling about in my head where they currently are, I'm going to be stuck in this same dark space forever.

Truth is, it's been almost 12 years since you died, and even though people told me that I will eventually move on, I still get a lump in throath and feel my heart sink into my stomach whenever I think about you.

What wears me out the most is that I was only five years old when you died at the age of 66. That's not an age to die at. You should've had so much more time. Time for yourself, and your family, and my little brother, whom you never really got to know because the cancer that killed you came so shortly after his birth.

Even though I was so young and it's been so long, I'm glad I have at least some memories of you.
I remember the days you looked after me when my parents went to work and I was still too young to go to the kindergarten, I remember snuggling up on the living room couches with you and grandpa, I remember how you'd take me to the forest to play out.

What I don't remember is your voice, and that scares me. I don't even know whether I could even remember your face if we didn't have so many photos of you. It makes me feel like a failure.
I don't want to ask Mom whether she remembers your voice because I know how sad that would make her. I'm afraid to talk to Mom about you, period, because I cannot imagine what I would feel like if I'd lose her, so I cannot fathom what she ha sbeen going through for the past twelve years of her life. I'm afraid to rip up old wounds that never really healed.

I don't even dare to say this out loud, but I feel like when you died, a part of my childhood died with you.
I feel like such an event makes you grow up a lot faster. I mean, while my parents watched over you as you died, I was at home, playing games with my aunt who looked after me, absolutely clueless. I had no idea how terrible your situation really was. I didn't even get to say goodbye. I still blame myself for this everytime I stand in front of your grave.

I've thought about death quite a lot ever since you died. About the afterlife, and what it must be like.
When I was little, I imagined it like a kind of big hotel up in the clouds, where you were looked after by angels. I'd used to stare out the window and try to talk to you and your angels. I wondered whether they treated you well.

To be honest, I don't know. I don't know a thing about where you are right now and whether everything is better for you, the way my parents told me you'd be better now because you weren't in pain anymore.

But I do hope so. I really, really hope that wherever you are, you're full of happiness and hopefully re-united with grandpa.
I miss both of you so much. I would give anything to talk to you right now, to hug you. I wonder whether you'd be proud of the person I've become.

More than anything, I wish with all of my heart to see you again someday, whether it's in a hotel filled with angels, our old forest or anywhere else.





This letter is a part of my 'A Letter to...' series, made up of a set of letters I wrote but will never send.
If you're interested, you can find the letter to first boy I've ever loved here.

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Friday, August 5, 2016

10 Tourist Mistakes to Avoid In Rome

Judging by how much content centered around my trip to Rome has been plastered all over my blog - I wrote about Rome's best restaurants and created a photo diary of my trip - you guys might know how much I love the city by now.

I enjoyed my time there so much that I've made a vow to return one day - hopefully sooner rather than later.
However, no matter how much I enjoyed the time I spent in Rome, there's also quite a few lessons I've learnt during the week that I'll have to keep in mind when visiting again.

And as I know that Rome is literally overflowing with tourists, especiall around this time of the year and there will most definitely be a lot of tourists visiting Rome for the first time, I wanted to share 10 tourist mistakes you should definitely avoid making to make your stay more enjoyable!



1. Getting a hotel near Termini station.

It's definitely tempting to book a hotel or hostel in the area around Termini station, but that's a mistake that you'll only make once.
Our hotel was only a few hunderd meters from the station and even though it was located in the "nicer" or more tourist-y part of the neighborhood, you can literally walk fifty meters to the right and end up in the most dogy streets you'll ever see.

For women, these streets are definitely not safe at night - I went out to grab a late night snack with some friends one night and was literally stared up and down and even followed around, which gave me the creeps. There's a lot of pickpockets around the area as well, which means you basically have to watch your every move.

It's better to invest some more money into a hotel that's located on the other side of town - even if it'll cost you more, you'll also feel better when leaving your hotel room.


2. Buying water in stores.

If you don't know this you might not even notice them, but there's soo many fountains that carry drinking water all around the city!

They're often hidden in smaller alleys, which means that you might not always have one right at hand and will have to look for one, but as the water's quality is excellent, it's much better to spend a few minutes looking for one of the drinking fountains rather than buying a bottle of water - those can become very expensive, ranging from one to three Euros for half a litter of water.


3. Visiting during the summer months.

If you, like me, are a student who only has enough time to travel during the summer months, you really have no choice when it comes to chosing the season you want to visit Rome in.

If you can decide when you're visiting freely, however, I advise you not to come during the summer months, meaning June, July and August.
I visited in late June to July and it was unbearably hot, with 25 degrees Celsius when we woke up in the morning, reaching up to 36 degrees at mid-day.
You can imagine that when you're out and about all day, such a climate is rather harsh - no matter how much sunscreen I used, I still got sunburnt almost every day.

It's a wiser choice to visit during spring or fall - due to the city's climate, it will still be quite warm then so the weather is still enjoyable for you without making you feel like you're having your brain cooked.


4. Wearing fancy shoes like sandals or even heels. 

I did Rome in sandals as, due to the heat, my feet were too swollen to fit into my sneakers, and believe me, I'm still dealing with the blisters an entire month later.

Roman streets were just not made for walking in fancy shoes. They're plastered with cobblestones and usually uneven, which means that you might even struggle when wearing comfortable shoes, but you will only get yourself hurting, blistered feet in shoes like sandals, flats or even heels (for the love of god, if you don't wish to break your ankles leave the heels at home.)


5. Grabbing a bite near tourist attractions.

Merely looking at a restaurant's menu near a major tourist attraction should be enough to put you off eating there. The prices rocket sky-high and you'll easily find yourself spending a 20€ note on freaking pasta.
Besides that, the food you'll be served there will hardly be authentic Italian food but often rather poor quality meals prepared in a short time to reel in as many tourists as possible.

It's better to venture into side streets or smaller alleys and look for restaurants there - but be careful, you should still check out their prices before ordering or you might still be trapped into paying 12€ for a bottle of water like I was. (Please punch me.)


6. Visiting the Colloseum on a weekday.

The Colloseum is one of the sights nearly every tourist will want to visit and if you do, too, you should really think about whether or not you'll stop by on a weekday and pay the full price for your ticket.

That is because entry to the Colloseum is free on Sundays, which means that you can save some real money here, especially if you're travelling with a bigger group.
However, you should keep in mind that more people will want to use this to their advantage so you should show up earlier if you want to avoid an isanely long queue.


7. Tipping.

If you've never been to Rome, you might not know that a lot of restaurant already charge for their services, meaning everything ranging from the table's decoration to the waiter's tip.
Because of that, you should always read your bill carefully to not tip a big amount on top of that.

In case the restaurant doesn't automatically charge you for their service, it is of course custom to leave a tip - but not a higher one than 10%.
 You can use quite a lot of money by tipping more because you feel like you have to, even though it isn't even expected from you.


8. Not watching out for your priced possesions.

As I already mentioned earlier, there are a lot of pickpockets out and about in Rome, and not just in the area around Termini.
Every monument or even crowded street, even the undergrounds are usually home to at least one thief, and they are quite cunning - you won't even notice how they grab something out your bag or even slice up the bottom of it with a knife to send your wallet, keys or phone tumbling to the ground.

Because it's so easy to get pickpocketed here, you should always carry your bag or backpack in front of you and keep your hand on it while walking; as well as carrying your phone in your hand or bag rather than the pants' pockets.
 That might sound drastic, but that way you're always keeping an eye on your belongings and make sure they stay yours.


9. Wearing the wrong clothes when you intend to enter a church.

I don't know how far churches' regulations go where you live, but here in Germany it's not required to cover your shoulders or legs in most churches so long as you keep your head uncovered.

I think that's what confuses a lot of tourists and might be why most of them try to enter the Vatican or other Roman churches wearing shorts or tank tops, because that's an absolute no-go. You will be prohibited from entering if you're not wearing appropiate clothing, which would be quite disappointing.

What you can do here is either wear something that covers your shoulders and legs up to your knees to begin with, take some clothing to change into before you enter the church or bring cloths to temporarily cover said areas.


10. Not taking enough time to marvel.

With so much to see, it's quite easy to get caught up in running around the city and doing sightseeing, but you shouldn't get too caught up in all of that because you might miss out on the wondeful atmosphere all around you.

Take some time to sit down, maybe in a cafe or even on the kerbstone and just take everything in. Watch people going about their everyday lives. Wonder how you could end up in heaven on earth. Be glad that you're able to experience all of this. Feel alive.



Now, have you made some similar tourist mistakes to mine? Please let me know about them, I'd love to hear your stories!


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Wednesday, August 3, 2016

July Beauty Favorites

I'm a litttle late to the party. Well, this is awkward.
I'm so used to posting my beauty favorites on the last or second to last day of the month that typing this on the 3rd of August makes me feel a little weird, and a little sad for having been so undisciplined when it came to blogging last month.

The last sentence pretty much sums up my July - I was finally free of all my exams and thus decided to enjoy every free second life threw at me, which happened to be a lot of seconds.
Good for my internal peace, not quite so good for my blog. Also not so for my bank account either as I finally had the time to hit the shops downtown and check out some new beauty products.

I also re-discovered some old summer favorites of mine, and this is how my following favorite beauty products from the month of July came to be!



MAC Mineralize Skinfinish Natural Powder in 'Light Plus' (32€)

I never even intended to buy this when I ventured into my local MAC store, but I'm so glad the lovely  shopping assistant decided to do my make up for me when I asked her whether she could match me to a shade of the Mineralize Concealer because that way, I found my new holy grail powder!

What I love about this powder is that, not only does it come in a shade that is a perfect match to my skin tone - I've struggled so long to find a good one in the drugstore - but also that it's not just a powder that helps you set your base.
When applied with a Beauty Blender, this provides enough coverage to substitute a foundation, which makes it a perfect product for the hot summer months!


Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara (23€)

I've been dying to try out some of Too Faced's products, but as they are not available here in Germany, I've always only dreamt about them.
When I went to Rome at the end of June, however, I spotted a Too Faced counter in Sephora - and what moment screams "Screw it!" more than discovering make up products that aren't available where you live?

I have so much to say about this that a feature in this post would be too short for it all, so if you want to read an in-depth review on this mascara, I have one up here.
I have to say that I do have some minor issues with the mascara, but they don't keep me from absolutely loving it.
I've never achieved such long lashes with just one coat of mascara - and if you know me, my lashes are naturally pretty much stumps.


Marc Jacobs Daisy Dream EdT (89€)

This one's a classic. My ultimate perfume. No matter how many other perfumes I wear, a lot of people recognize me by the smell of this - it's pretty much my signature scent.

I've raved about this perfume on here so much that I don't want to bug you with my love for it for too long, but what you need to know about this is that it smells, as the name suggests, flowery but also somewhat fruity as it has a note of pear to it. What I like about the scent is that it's really light and not at all overpowering.

It's also really long-lasting and often sticks around for at least half a, if not the whole day - I've also gone swimming wearing this scent quite a lot and most of the time, you could still make out a faint smell of it afterwards, that's how great it is.


MAC Mineralize Concealer in 'NW20' (24€)

As I mentioned in my recent MAC haul, I've been dying to try one of MAC's concealers as I've hear quite a lot about them, but I've always refrained from buying one online because I had no clue which shade I had to get.

Luckily, I met them most amazing shopping assistant who matched me to a shade - thank god I had her do it because I would've gone for the lightest shade, but as I'm now sporting a tan it's actually way too light for me!

I love using this on my under-eye area as it cancels out all the nasty darkness I've got going on around there and doesn't go cakey or start sliding off my face throughout the day.


Essie Nail Polish in 'Bikini So Teeny' (7,99€)

This is another one of my favorite summer produtcs.
Ever since I've picked it up in Berlin last year, it has become one of my favorite summer nail polishes as it's definitely an eye-catcher and a nice change from the pastel polishes I'm usually wearing.

What's great about Essie's nail polishes is the value for money you get. The longevity of this is amazing, I often wear this polish for one week before it starts slightly chipping around the edges - perfect for when you're too lazy to re-do your nails every few days!


Is there a specific product you enjoyed last month?


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Monday, August 1, 2016

But Is It Really Better Than Sex?


You might have noticed that I've been a bit - or quite - absent from my blog during the last week or two, and I'm really sorry about that. That was due to a nasty computer virus that literally took my laptop apart, so I had to give it away to have it fixed - it seriously broke my heart. I wish I was kidding.

However, I've got something really exciting to tell you about today.
Technically, most of you will probably have heard of Too Faced's 'Better Than Sex Mascara' by now because a ton of bloggers have been raving about it, but as Too Faced products aren't available here in Germany I've always admired the mascara from afar.

When I went to Rome, however, I managed to snatch the last one in Sephora (if you're interested in finding out about all the other cool stuff I picked up on my trip, you can find it here.)
During the past month, I've been testing it and noting down my thoughts so I can now break it down to you - is it really as great as the hype makes us believe?




The first thing I noticed while using this mascara for the first time was its wand, which is definitely out of the ordinary as it is a little wider at the bottom and top, a shape of wand that I haven't come across yet.

The wand does make application harder, at least during your first few tries - you do learn how to handle this, but it takes time and a few smudges.
Talking smudges, I also have to mention that the wand picks up quite a lot of the product, which means that you should carefully get rid of any excessive product if you don't it to clump your lashes,


I feel like I have, up to this point, only been moaning about the Better Than Sex Mascara, which I didn't even intend to do!
I just had to get all of the small issues I've had with it out of the way at first because even though they are there, the effect this has on my eyelashes is definitely worth it.

If you're no stranger to me and my blog, you'll know how much I love my Maybelline Lash Sensational because that mascara was the first one that made me look like I actually had long, full lashes.
However, Too Faced's mascara does the job almost twice as well, especially when used with an eyelash curler - with just one coat, my lashes double in lenght! Another coat lenghtens them even more - however, I wouldn't advise applying a third layer of the product as it will clump your lashes together sooner or later.

Longevity wise, this mascara is alright.
It lasts on my lashes half a day - incase I do remember that I'm wearing make up and don't rub it away - but after that, it does tend to disappear more and more as time progresses, especially on hotter day - but it doesn't leave any fallout, for some reason. Just dissolves into nothing.
Well, at least it doesn't give me panda eyes, so who am I to complain, huh?


Overall, this a through and through good product, even though it has some minor weaknesses. It's not as flawless as the hype surrounding it makes us believe, but if you can look over the few issues you might experience with this, you'll still love it nonetheless.

At a price tag of 23€ it is definitely not a beauty product you'll buy for yourself light-heartedly - even though it gives you amazing results, you might want to have this applied at Sephora for you to find out whether it's something you'll want to splurge on.


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